M ore Thoughts...

Woke up this morning and the drive into work today was me spending time thinking and reflecting about life, me and other things..

Don't know why but something doesn't feel right... for some reason I have this ever increasing thought that something is missing in my life. Crazy thing is I'm not even sure what it is... what I can make out from it is I feel like there is something I should be doing or trying to do. Don't get me wrong for the most part things are OK. I mean sure .....I'm not going to come out here and say raising kids is easy and its the reason why I'm here, it's not easy at all but I tolerate it. I love my kids and my wife no question but it just takes up soooo much of my free time which is next to Nil. However being there for my kids is something that I want to do.. I never really had my dad spend time with me simply because back then times were different. My dad needed to work like a dog for 7 days a week, 2 jobs back to back to make a life for us and I don't want that for mine.

So I dunno...... either its my job, or just going through the daily grind which can be so repetitive. Basically I don't want to be 50 and realize that all I've done in my life is what was required. I gotta start thinking about making time for me and I don't mean going out for a pint or a coffee, whatever it is it has to have some significance to who and what I am as a person. I've made a promise to myself to start taking the time to figuring it out.

I remember back in the day when I was a Chief Video Editor that I was a pretty happy guy. In my heart I consider myself an artist with expressing my feelings with visual imagery. Just because I can't draw or paint doesn't mean I wasn't able to artistically express myself. I used to grab a SLR or a Video Camera and go out and shoot things come home and then paint my picture via editing. Why and I blabbing all this? Cause its one of the first things that came to mind in regards to start doing something with meaning for me.

On the flip side, I took a moment to think about the things all good in my life. I can honestly say that in regards to the people in my life I'm a really lucky guy. EVERYONE that I've met or is a part of my life whether it be family or friends all mean a huge deal to me. They are largely parts of my thoughts when I think about things in my past and for that I'm truly grateful. Without all of these people in my life I wouldn't be who I am today. Of course life is about many different things in regards to how a person is who they is but friends and family is def at the top of the list for me.

Sorry for the lack of structured thought but either way I just wanted to share.

Just remember to never regret what you've done and don't be afraid of doing things. Never let someone tell you that it can't be done and fuck all the haters. Disclaimer: None of this is new to any of you I'm sure but wanted to remind you of it regardless.

Cheers.