Random Thoughts From My Soul....

Yesterday's post reminded me of something that I wrote about 3 years ago..

Enjoy.

My life is what exactly? A test? A puzzle? A game? 28 years old and at least half of that I have been asking myself those questions... and to no avail I am no closer to the answer than I was years ago. There are times when I feel as if though I’m just another insignificant being lost in a bowl of soup trying to stay afloat.
But when I take a moment and just stop.....

Like a sponge I soak a rush of emotion, and for that one moment I realize just how careless I am at understanding the simple things.... The smell of the air....The warmth of the sun on my face...The sound of the wind and the sway of the trees....The moon and the jewels that fill the night sky only to be replaced by the next morning’s mystical awakening as the sun returns to its rightful place...

Its then that I come to understand one thing.....the example of how nature and its many elements are all part of each other to make the canvas we inhabit such a place to be....with out one there is no equilibrium. This is what keeps me going; this is what gives me a firm grip on that rocky ledge... MY equilibrium.

My life is composed of many elements. All that I am is composed of the people that I surround myself with, the people who have left such a mark on my life that they are somehow a part of me wherever I go. A feeling, a scent, even a sound can trigger a memory from long ago. Its these people in my life that are my elements...my jewels in the sky....

Will I be remembered centuries after I am gone?....probably not. Does it matter? No. My mark that I leave in this life is not deep enough to remain. Like sand in the shores of the ocean my small legacy will be washed away only to be replaced by many others which will come and go. There are times that I wish that there are things that I can do for this world, something that all will remember me by forever.

One thing I am certain of is this...to say that I have been given the chance to live is the greatest thing of all.
And when that dark cloud of insecurity comes round from time to time; is when I take a moment and just stop.......

Random thoughts from my Soul on the 9th day of December in the year 2003.